Anxiety Girl

WHY are they always talking about ME?

Have you ever walked by some friends and they glance at you, but keep talking?  Normal, right?  I never thought so.  I wanted to know what I did wrong.  What were they saying about me?  Why didn't they stop and talk to me?  I wonder why they feel this way about me...  

I have felt this way for as long as I can remember.  I didn't get the Anxiety diagnosis until I was 24 years old, however.  Xanax became my best friend.  I had good days, where I only needed after work.  On my best days, I only needed it to sleep.  I didn't like what it did to me though.  Don't get me wrong, I felt great!  I wasn't nervous, I wasn't stressed out, I didn't care what people thought of me...but that's just it.  I didn't CARE.  I didn't care at all.  About anything. 

Fast forward to my 30s.  As a kindergarten teacher, I had my share of stress.  Included in that stress was the basic elimination of tenure, and the addition of "meeting data" as part of our evaluation.  In a Title 1 school, having kindergarteners meet "common core" benchmarks can be a challenge.  Another challenge is the moral dilemma.  Do I take my "needed" medication in the AM before I work and feel less anxious?  Or do I skip it, be more "on my game," but get irritated by everything in sight?  It was not a fun time.

Fast forward to 2015.  After "giving in" to my friend's Plexus posts and starting my regimen, I am finally MED FREE!!  My need for Xanax has fluctuated up and down for years, but I am SO happy to report that I no longer need it.  AT ALL!!  Not even to get to sleep.  This could be you!